Hey dad
I’m writing to you
Not to tell you
That I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your daughters?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we’re all right?
Well we’re all right

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother’s heart, you broke your children for life
It’s not ok, but we’re all right
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes
But those are just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now I’m writing just to let you know I’m still alive

The days I spent so
Cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
The scars run deep inside this scared body
There’s things I’ll take
To my grave
But I’m okay
I’m okay..

And Sometimes
I forgive
Yeah and this time
I’ll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you dad..

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 By Fedorova

{ may tunes }
listen here
iris // sleeping with sirens
wherever you are // 5sos
you’re so dark // arctic monkeys
howlin’ for you //  the black keys
loverboy // you me at six
do you love me at all // jett rebel
about a girl // nirvana
robbers // the 1975
miserable at best // mayday parade
hold onto me // mayday parade
amnesia // 5 seconds of summer
how to love // lil wayne
say you like me // we the kings
smells like teen spirit // nirvana
i miss you // 5 seconds of summer
beside you // 5 seconds of summer
dear maria, count me in // all time low
i write sins not tragedies  // panic! at the disco
adam’s song // blink-182

A girlfriend deserves to be,
Cherished – she’s delicate, give her a hint that you truly care for her, for she will do the same.
Buttered up – as her man you have to be the first person to discern her façade, and please don’t ever tell to her that she’s hideous or something, it’ll upset her.
Sated – let her know that even you’re not the crème de la crème that everyone is looking for; she would still feel gratified.
Safe and sound – it’s your concern to look after her, but not to the point that you’re very domineering and you fend off her boy-friends and you’ll go wherever she go, just make her feel secured when she’s with you.
Smiling – not crying. A girl like her deserves to wear the best outfit ever. Don’t let yourself be the reason for the unwelcome tears behind her eyes.
Loved – the most crucial thing she’s entitled, all these things without love is inadequate. In everything you give, do and say to her has to be possessed with devotion. For she would feel blessed not lucky.

How To Tell If Somebody Loves You:

Somebody loves you if they pick an eyelash off of your face or wet a napkin and apply it to your dirty skin. You didn’t ask for these things, but this person went ahead and did it anyway. They don’t want to see you looking like a fool with eyelashes and crumbs on your face. They notice these things. They really look at you and are the first to notice if something is amiss with your beautiful visage!

Somebody loves you if they assume the role of caretaker when you’re sick. Unsure if someone really gives a shit about you? Fake a case of food poisoning and text them being like, “oh my god, so sick. need water.” Depending on their response, you’ll know whether or not they REALLY love you. “That’s terrible. Feel better!” earns you a stay in friendship jail; “Do you need anything? I can come over and bring you get well remedies!” gets you a cozy friendship suite. It’s easy to care about someone when they don’t need you. It’s easy to love them when they’re healthy and don’t ask you for anything beyond change for the parking meter. Being sick is different. Being sick means asking someone to hold your hair back when you vomit. Either love me with vomit in my hair or don’t love me at all.

Somebody loves you if they call you out on your bullshit. They’re not passive, they don’t just let you get away with murder. They know you well enough and care about you enough to ask you to chill out, to bust your balls, to tell you to stop. They aren’t passive observers in your life, they are in the trenches. They have an opinion about your decisions and the things you say and do. They want to be a part of it; they want to be a part of you.

Somebody loves you if they don’t mind the quiet. They don’t mind running errands with you or cleaning your apartment while blasting some annoying music. There’s no pressure, no need to fill the silences. You know how with some of your friends there needs to be some sort of activity for you to hang out? You don’t feel comfortable just shooting the shit and watching bad reality TV with them. You need something that will keep the both of you busy to ensure there won’t be a void. That’s not love. That’s “hey babe! i like you okay. do you wanna grab lunch? i think we have enough to talk about to fill two hours!” It’s a damn dream when you find someone you can do nothing with. Whether you’re skydiving together or sitting at home and doing different things, it’s always comfortable. That is fucking love.

Somebody loves you if they want you to be happy, even if that involves something that doesn’t benefit them. They realize the things you need to do in order to be content and come to terms with the fact that it might not include them. Never underestimate the gift of understanding. When there are so many people who are selfish and equate relationships as something that only must make them happy, having someone around who can take their needs out of any given situation if they need to.

Somebody loves you if they can order you food without having to be told what you want. Somebody loves you if they rub your back at any given moment. Somebody loves you if they give you oral sex without expecting anything back. Somebody loves you if they don’t care about your job or how much money you make. It’s a relationship where no one is selling something to the other. No one is the prostitute. Somebody loves you if they’ll watch a movie starring Kate Hudson because you really really want to see it. Somebody loves you if they’re able to create their own separate world with you, away from the internet and your job and family and friends. Just you and them.

Somebody will always love you. If you don’t think this is true, then you’re not paying close enough attention.

Ryan O’Connell  (via fragilis)

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I have these two neighbours and they’re married and they gotta be like in their late 30s and I’m making dinner and I look out the window and they’re running around outside in their pajamas and bare feet with water pistols soaking eachother and laughing so loud it made me realise I’m wasting so much time trying to make relationships perfect when all that’s really needed is someone who will laugh with me for the rest of my life

(Source: lost-and-so-not-found, via michaeldaavss)

Three things you can’t recover in life …
The moment, after it’s passed
The words, after they’re spoken and
The time, after it’s lost.
Unknown (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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